"I understand what you mean and what you were trying to say in your post about Fat Acceptance, even if it seems like most of those people do not. Yes, dieting is a trigger for most. Yes, most people do it because of the pressure from society. BUT, that doesn’t mean they should all judge you and shun you because YOU start dieting for you and say something about it on your blog or in the tag. That is completely going against what I think they preach about “body love” and “all sizes can be healthy”. Yes, all sizes can be healthy and should be loved, but when YOUR body gets to a size that is not healthy and you decide to change that, you still need the support and understanding. And you do not want to turn toward the “THINspiration” or typical dieting tags/posts because they are not what you are going for. I think I got a little ranty there, but that is how I feel and I think from the post you made you felt somewhat the same way. If so, it’s nice to know that."
To elaborate some on MY story, I have always been fat. Always. And over the course of my 24 years, I have learned to accept it. I love myself for who I am. I can be great, I have strengths, I have friends, I have people who love me. I have a wonderful boyfriend who supports me no matter what. But in the past two years, I have gained almost 100 pounds. I have gone up two sizes in clothing. But, that is not what has bothered me and what has made me decide to diet, because I still love myself. I still see girls that are my size and think they are beautiful. No, what has gotten to me is my health.
I used to be able to walk 2-3 miles in 45 minutes (which, mind you, isn’t a lot, but I could DO it). I used to be able to stand for 8-10 hours at work. I used to be able to walk up the stairs more than once without getting out of breath. My sugar used to be under control, even ran on the low end usually. I used to be able to eat without getting tired and wanting to go to sleep immediately after. I didn’t have stomach problems after eating certain foods. I didn’t use to have my fingers and toes go numb randomly.
All of THOSE are the reasons I want to get healthy. THOSE are the reasons I am changing my diet. THOSE are the reasons some weight will come off. THOSE are the reasons that should be legitimate in the Fat Acceptance Community. They are not reasons to shun someone for losing weight. They are not reasons to tell someone they don’t love their body.
And, if you do tell someone they shouldn’t diet or don’t love their body when they have legitimate reasons, I think you are almost as bad as they people who shun you because you aren’t skinny. You can’t preach that you should strive to be healthy and then go against that by telling someone not to lose weight while doing so.
I’m fat. I’m on a diet. I shouldn’t have to EXPLAIN MY REASONS to anyone, but here I am, having to state over and over to people who are acting all concerned for me, that I am not on a diet because I don’t love my body. I’m not on a diet because I’m “giving in” to any-fucking-thing. I’m on a diet…
“I don’t trust anyone who hasn’t been self-destructive in some way. And who hasn’t gone through some sort of self-loathing? You’ve got to bang yourself around a bit to know yourself.”—Johnny Depp (via coyotesaint)
Er. How are all you people watching the Olympics already? I mean, I understand in other countries, but my friends that live here in the states are already watching, even though when I checked the TV it said it comes on at 7:30pm and it is only 5:30pm. WTF?
I restarted today. The past month I wound up staying at my aunt’s house to dogsit/housesit and didn’t follow through with my goals. Then I went on vacation.
But today, I started fresh. My parents, boyfriend, bother, and sister started a challenge with me to lose weight and get healthier. I’m hoping with the support I can make it further and see my results.
I took before pictures, but not sure I want to post them on here just yet, I’m still deciding. I updated my measurements post. I also decided I’m not going to post my daily food intake, but instead use this blog to show measurements and post when I’m feeling discouraged. THIS IS NOT GOING TO BE A “THINSPIRATION” BLOG. I do not want and will not ever want to be like that. My goal is not to become “skinny”, my goal is to become healthy.